Erm... yeah :) I'm alive 
And I'm updating after ages XDDD
Firstly, the fandom related partbecause I'm still in my OMG-JIN-IN-A-MOVIE MODE:
1. WHITE X'MAS
So last Thursday was announced that KAT-TUN will have a new single. The news made me super happythough I bursted into tears when I realized the significance of the release date for me. Anyway I won't say I hope they'll sell a lot of copies because i said that for DUES and.. yeah, you know what happened >,<.
2. J I N
Today JIN'S MOVIE WAS CONFIRMED!!!!!!!
JIN IN A MOVIE!!!
JIN GOT WORK!!!! AFTER BEING PRACTICALLY DEAD FOR MONTHS!!!! AT LAST!!!
JIN STARRING IN A MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!
JIN PLAYING A ROCK SINGER!!!!!
JIN SINGING AND ACTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
VERY POSSIBLE CD DEBUT!!!!!!!!!!
NOT POSSIBLE AT ALL BUT: CARE RELEASED ON THE POSSIBLE SINGLE/ALBUM?!!!!
ALL THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE <3
stolen from GGuampu's blogs
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So c u t e<3:
AKAKAME
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Oh, and this is from the drama I'm currently watching
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Now onto my real life drama called... My real life
So I've been in my emo/drama queen mode since the beginning of the month. And I realize I can't go on like this any longer: spending my whole time in self-pity & miserable thoughts, cursing my laziness/indecisiveness/bad luck/karma/whatever, hating everything and everyone, bursting into tears every other minute, bitching all day long in front of everyone how I'm THE ONE with those BIG problems (when clearly everyone has problems), being angry with everyone just because they're living their lives normally.
I have to pull myself together. The world doesn't revolve around me. Nobody has the obligation to babysit me. Nobody will cut their wrists because I'm in this state. I've never wanted to be pitied beforebecause, hey, I'm the man XD but these days I've wondered what would it be if I acted like a certain someone I know made all people around really worried and acted like I'm about to die so that they'd treat me as if I were the centre of the universe... However, I couldn't ever do such a thing because I hate people who act like that
Enough. One month was enough. No moar emoing!
Now I should remember the person I used to be. A person who was a fighter. I used to be a fighter, a person who never gave up. Someone who knew what they wanted to do and how to do it. Someone who believed trying was always worth. Someone who was full of ambitions, dreams and positive feelings. Someone who loved life.
I want to meet this person again.
Аз не живея: аз горя. Непримирими
в гърдите ми се борят две души:
душата на ангел и демон. В гърди ми
те пламъци дишат и плам ме суши.
И пламва двоен пламък, дето се докосна,
и в каменът аз чуя две сърца ...
EDIT: OMG, there's an English traslation for this poem XDDDD Well it can't reveal even 1/28732876353645 part of the beauty of the original but anyway that's it: translations ruin poetry:
I do not live: I burn. In acrimony raging
Two souls are duelling within my breast:
The soul of a devil, the sould of an angel.
Their breathing is flame and it gives me no rest.
Not one flame bursts but two – whatever I am touching,
And in each stone two heartbeats I hear clash …
And I'm updating after ages XDDD Firstly, the fandom related part
1. WHITE X'MAS
So last Thursday was announced that KAT-TUN will have a new single. The news made me super happy
2. J I N
Today JIN'S MOVIE WAS CONFIRMED!!!!!!!
JIN IN A MOVIE!!!
JIN GOT WORK!!!! AFTER BEING PRACTICALLY DEAD FOR MONTHS!!!! AT LAST!!!
JIN STARRING IN A MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!
JIN PLAYING A ROCK SINGER!!!!!
JIN SINGING AND ACTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
VERY POSSIBLE CD DEBUT!!!!!!!!!!
ALL THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE <3
stolen from GGuampu's blogs
:So c u t e
<3:AKAKAME
:Oh, and this is from the drama I'm currently watching
------------------------------------------------
Now onto my real life drama called... My real life
So I've been in my emo/drama queen mode since the beginning of the month. And I realize I can't go on like this any longer: spending my whole time in self-pity & miserable thoughts, cursing my laziness/indecisiveness/bad luck/karma/whatever, hating everything and everyone, bursting into tears every other minute, bitching all day long in front of everyone how I'm THE ONE with those BIG problems (when clearly everyone has problems), being angry with everyone just because they're living their lives normally.
I have to pull myself together. The world doesn't revolve around me. Nobody has the obligation to babysit me. Nobody will cut their wrists because I'm in this state. I've never wanted to be pitied before
Enough. One month was enough. No moar emoing!
Now I should remember the person I used to be. A person who was a fighter. I used to be a fighter, a person who never gave up. Someone who knew what they wanted to do and how to do it. Someone who believed trying was always worth. Someone who was full of ambitions, dreams and positive feelings. Someone who loved life.
I want to meet this person again.
Аз не живея: аз горя. Непримирими
в гърдите ми се борят две души:
душата на ангел и демон. В гърди ми
те пламъци дишат и плам ме суши.
И пламва двоен пламък, дето се докосна,
и в каменът аз чуя две сърца ...
EDIT: OMG, there's an English traslation for this poem XDDDD Well it can't reveal even 1/28732876353645 part of the beauty of the original but anyway that's it: translations ruin poetry:
I do not live: I burn. In acrimony raging
Two souls are duelling within my breast:
The soul of a devil, the sould of an angel.
Their breathing is flame and it gives me no rest.
Not one flame bursts but two – whatever I am touching,
And in each stone two heartbeats I hear clash …
